A Smile

A smile costs nothing, but gives much.

 It enriches those who receive, without making poorer those who give.

It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. 

None is so rich or mighty that he can get along without it, 

and none is so poor but that he can be made rich by it. 

A smile creates happiness in the home, 

fosters good will in business, 

and is the countersign of friendship.

It brings rest to the weary, 

cheer to the discouraged, 

sunshine to the sad, 

and is it natures's best antidote for trouble. 

Yet it cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, 

for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. 

Some people are too tired to give you a smile. 

Give them one of yours, 

as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give.
-Unknown

Be of Good Cheer

"None of us makes it through this life without problems and challenges—and sometimes tragedies and misfortunes. After all, in large part we are here to learn and grow from such events in our lives. We know that there are times when we will suffer, when we will grieve, and when we will be saddened. However, we are told, “Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy.".....I testify to you that our promised blessings are beyond measure. Though the storm clouds may gather, though the rains may pour down upon us, our knowledge of the gospel and our love of our Heavenly Father and of our Savior will comfort and sustain us and bring joy to our hearts as we walk uprightly and keep the commandments. There will be nothing in this world that can defeat us......My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith." President Thomas S. Monson

I cannot think of a better way to put things. When you are not at your best you are blind to what is important and why things are the way they are. Sometimes we get in situations that suck like non other and we just want to get away from it. But how blessed we are that we can't just get away from it. That God loves us so much that he will let us learn and grow. That he will let us call on Him for help. All it takes is for us to reach out to him. He will always answer when we put our trust in Him.

How grateful I am to have a living prophet alive today that can give guidance and comfort. It is almost time for another general conference. I can't even explain how excited I am. I could listen to these wonderful people speak everyday of my life.

I Am Me

I am me.

I am a believer. A believer in God. A believer in love. I believe in family and I believe in friends. I believe everyone has something to offer. Everyone is someone. Everyone has worth. I believe that.

I am emotional. I laugh, I cry, I get mad, I get shy, I get scared, I get surprised. I have feelings just like everyone. I have experienced them all. I would have it no other way. I want these things. I want to feel happy and I want to cry. I want to feel so I know I'm alive.

I am curious. I ask lots of questions because I want to know as much as I can. I want answers. I want to learn. I want to know people, truly know them on a personal level. I want to explore the unknown. Gain knowledge of things I didn't know before.
I am loving. I love everyone with all I have. I want it so I should give it.

I am not perfect, I do have my faults. I've made my mistakes and I have took wrong turns. I don't want to be perfect. I want to mess up. I want to be told, "That's not right." Because it's in these times that I learn the most. It's when I grow and become a better me. Learning is living and living is learning.

I will never claim to be someone other than me because I like me. I like who I am. I wouldn't want to be anyone but me. I wouldn't trade me for anything.

I am me.

Face The Future With Faith

Dear Lord, for these three things I pray:

To know thee more clearly,

To love thee more dearly,

To follow thee more nearly

Every day

- Anonymous

Tomorrow

Just because you don't have something today doesn't mean you won't have it tomorrow. Nobody knows what their future holds. It's one of life's greatest mysteries. We all want different things. Waiting and working to get those things is the hardest part about this. Not knowing if you will reach those goals no matter how hard you try. Somethings just aren't meant to be. Somethings just don't work out. Accepting that is something that I struggle with. Somethings I want so bad but don't have the patience to sit and earn them. Everybody needs, wants and craves love. It's apart of being human. It's something that everyone thinks about. Especially me. I'm the type of girl that dreams about a prince charming. Someone who will love me no matter what it takes. Someone that is willing to deal with my imperfections. To hold me when I need holding. To laugh at me when I'm being funny. To be there whenever I need them. Maybe I'm really immature and naive about all this but I don't see what's wrong with wanting love. It's the most natural human thing out there. I'm not saying I want this tomorrow. Nor next week. I just want it in my future. So what will tomorrow bring? It will bring me the sun. It will bring me new feelings. It will bring me more homework. It'll bring new meaning in my life. It will push me away from my past and into my future.

Tyler Turpin

I have this amazing man in my life named Tyler. He is one of the most loving people that I know. Sometimes he doesn't seem it but he does try to put others before him. I look up to my big brother in so many ways. Watching him live and over come the challenges in his life makes me know that I can over come mine. My big brother is strong. One of the strongest people I know. He is smart. Someone I can go to when I have trouble with my homework. He is everything that a big brother is "supposed" to be. He watches over me and is always willing to take care of me. He stands up for me and will always be there. I know the Lord did right by putting him in my family. I am so grateful that I can call him my Big Brother and that he is a part of my life. I wouldn't be the same without him. Tyler, I love you with all my heart. Thank you for all you have done for me and all that you will do in the future.

<3

Good In The Bad

In this world of destruction, lies and fears

That seems to be made of nothing but tears

Where people kill, burn and hate

How less and less graduate

More parents scream, beat and rape

And leave their kids with more then scrapes

Teens commit suicide

And think on the downside

More are addicted to drugs

And men try to be thugs

But in the mist of all this bad

The anger, the rude, the sad

There is still good

Where we can relive our childhood

Love grows in the darkest of dark places

No matter the ages

Dreams

Ever have those dreams where everything seems so real? And when you wake up it takes a minute to come back to reality? Yeah. I keep having those. I love and despise these dreams. I love them because I can feel everything. I can feel him. Every touch. I can literally feel when I'm wrapped in his arms and that sense of security fills me. I can hear his voice with complete clarity. See everything as if it is happening in real life. I despise them because they aren't real. They are all in my head. And no matter what I do they won't be real. And every time I have to wake up and realize that over and over and over again. I don't blame the guys in Inception for wanting to live in their dreams. I know I do. Even if you can't run properly and it jumps around like crazy. Nothing can be more chaotic then reality. Nothing can hit you as hard as life can. In dreams that doesn't happen. It's second only to heaven. It's said that dreams are the desires of the heart. To an extent I believe that. That's why I want to move there. I'm packing my bags;) JK! But for the time being I will take my dreams, until one day when they can be real:)

These Moments

It's in these moments where I remember where I stand. When I can see with complete clarity what I want and where I'm headed. These are the times I know exactly how I feel with no doubt in my mind. When I race back through time and relive every memory from my past leading up till now. These moments...they put me back on track. They take away my fears and remind me that things will work out. In the end everything will be the way it's supposed to be. Some things in life are just that, things. They aren't worth the worry we put ourselves through. These moments remind me of that. They bring back feelings I've been missing. They fill in all the blanks. Answer all my questions. How I wish every moment could be one of these moments...but that only happens in my special place;)

The Woman

See that woman over there?

She's so lonesome

She lives in a cloud of fear

Yearning for the gratitude of others

So why do we scoff?

That would make us the fool

The fool for persecuting this woman

We force her to live in envy

The security of her own mind

To live with this pain of un-acceptance 

We drive her to hate

Give her the opportunity to fail

We peel away her shield and attack

Attack with gossip and lies

We tear her down

Throw her to the floor and stomp

Stomp till there is nothing left

And why?

Because she dared

Dared to rise

To become something in this world

Grandma Turpin

One year ago, on this day, one of the most inspirational woman left this world to enter into something so much better. Life hasn't been the same since my Grandma Turpin passed away. She was the kindest lady I have ever known. She taught me many lessons in my life and I don't think I will ever be able to repay her for what she has done for me and my family. You couldn't find a cuter couple then my Grandparents. Seriously. I want my life to play out just like hers. She was a wonderful mother, grandma and person. I look up to her in every way possible. I can't wait to hug her again in the presence of all my family. I love you Grandma. Till we meet again. <3

Walls

            I have this nasty habit of putting up walls. To everyone. Especially the people I care most about. When someone brings up certain things I put a wall up. When I get mad I put the wall up, shut down, and most likely avoid talking to you. I guess it's cause i'm pretty sensitive. I don't like making people feel bad in anyway and I don't like getting hurt in return. When I like someone I put up that dang wall. I try to hide behind it until it blows over. Most the time though, things like that don't just blow over and I slowly take the wall down. I guess if I put a wall up to you it's a bit of a compliment? haha I am aware of this wall but in all honesty I don't know how to take it down. It's such a natural part of me that I almost can't control it. It's my defense to getting hurt. It's not like every thing will hurt me. There is just a chance that it will and I don't ever know if it's worth that risk. Getting hurt like that is one of the worst things in the world. At least to me it is. It's become one of my biggest fears. Someday I won't have that wall....hopefully. Haha
            If I have ever put my wall up to you I apologize. Just know that it's not you. Ever. It's me and I truly am working it. I am only human after all.