Monday, November 26, 2012
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Stop being unhappy with yourself.
You are amazing.
Stop wishing you looked like someone else
or wishing people liked you as mush as they like someone else.
Stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you.
Stop hating your body,
Without those things you wouldn't be you.
And why would you want to be anyone else?
Be confident with who are.
Smile. It'll draw people in.
If people hate on you because you are happy with yourself
they are probably jealous.
So let them hate.
Don't let your happiness depend on others.
Be happy because of who you are.
Love your flaws.
Love your imperfections.
They make you, you.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Have you ever taken a second and thought about how many blessing we all have? Has that second turned to minutes? Then hours? Days? Even years? It would take our entire life to really point out every blessing. To see them and truly be thankful for them. Just look around you. The things you see everyday are blessings. Where you live, your friends, the way technology has grown, a sunset, a father hugging his children. They are all good and they are all blessings. I think a lot of people get caught up with everything that is bad in the world and how unfair it is. It's true. There is a lot of bad things that have happened. Too many lives have been taken, too many kids beaten, too many wars started, too many families torn apart. And it's sad. To think that darkness like that exists. But there is just as much good. There is happy things too. Families are being made everyday, people are coming together to help others, love is growing, the world is becoming more beautiful. It's not always easy to see it. Somedays are hard others easy but when you stop and take that second to think about all the blessings God has given us it makes life more enjoyable and worth it. So here is the start of my second...
I am thankful for the Gospel. I honestly don't know where I would be without it. To have that truth and stability in my life. It's the light that has gotten me through more trials than I can count.
I'm thankful for my parents. Two people who, through example, has shown me love and kindness. Who raised me with a knowledge of Christ and a desire to serve him. They taught me respect and gratitude. I wouldn't be me without them.
I am thankful for my siblings. You know some friends have fall outs and they become strangers but not family. Not my siblings. They are always there and always will be. I can always count on them. They make me laugh and cry. Sometimes at the same time. They're amazing and I couldn't have asked for better.
I am thankful for my nieces and nephew. You don't know what love and happiness is until you hear their laughter, feel their arms around your neck or listen to them learn your name. They may be young but they teach me every time I see them. There is definitely a reason we need to be like little children.
I'm thankful for my friends. They love me no matter what and care for me in ways words can't describe. We share so many adventures and memories together. Each has influenced my life for good and helped me be a better person.
I am thankful for my home, my job, my car, hot chocolate:) I'm thankful that even though somedays are hard I still get to have days. I get to look out the window and see the sun or the moon. The beauty of the mountains and sunsets. Oh how I love sunsets. I'm so thankful for my health. That I can go out and make each day a different adventure. I know I talk about these things ALL the time but they are such a big part of my life and I'm so grateful for them that I can't not talk about them. I am eternally grateful for all of them for all my blessings.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Disappointment is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. When you find someone isn't the person they claim to be. When you make plans and one little thing destroys them. The disappointment can be devastating. You have these expectations built in your head and you think you know but the truth is no one knows what the future holds. No one knows what twist life will throw at you next. It always comes as a surprise and there is no way to be prepared for it. All we can do is accept it and deal with it. Things will always be taken from us but that's okay because things will also be given to us. "God will never take anything away from you without giving you something so much better." There has to be some type of balance. It won't always be what you want or what you are looking for but it will ALWAYS be the thing you need. We are all being looked after and we have to have faith in that. We have to accept something when it is given to us or in the end we will just become bitter and angry. Things change and people change. Holding on to how they used to be won't bring you the future that is awaiting you. So take deep breath. Close your eyes. And take the leap of faith to move forward cause that's the only way to happiness.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
As I was typing up my final for my Marriage and Relationship Skills class I had to decide on one of the most important chapters out of my book. I choose the one on forgiveness. It got me thinking about all the mistakes I have made in my life and all the things I have done wrong to people. It's kind of sad thought, that if I could go back and change things I would. It's always a bit of a slap in the face when you realize just how much you have messed up and there isn't much you can do about it. It is so important to realize that people make mistakes and we can't hold them to them. We are all full of weaknesses. We all make dumb choices. To think that someone doesn't is to live a lie and i'm sorry but your dreams will be crushed. I'm a believer in second chances. If someone asks for forgiveness who am I to deny them that right? I would want the same in return. "He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her." Shouldn't we look at our own sins before others? Yes, we should but we don't because it is easier to face faults in others than it is to face them in ourselves. It's easier to hold a grudge and be angry but grudges hold you in prison. Forgiveness sets the prisoner free. We don't get to be the judge. It's our job to forgive.
"Wherefore, I say unto you, that ye ought to forgive one another; for he that forgiveth not his brother his trespasses standeth condemned before the Lord; for there remaineth in him the greater sin. I, the Lord, will forgive whom I will forgive, but of you it is required to forgive all men." (D&C 64:9-10)So here's to all my mistakes. I apologize if I have ever wronged you in any way. I apologize for my stupid choices and for all the times I have and will mess up. I've said it before and will say it again, I'm not perfect. I don't claim to be. I am human. Sometimes the lesser person comes out.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
...you realize you're not the only one trying to be his/her only one.
...you look up and there’s a handsome stranger staring at you,and you get goosebumps all over.
...you look at someone and you HAVE to have them. Whatever it takes.
...you realize you don’t know if your plans are what is best for you anymore.
...you finish a test, and think, “Man, I owned that!” Then you get the test back and see your actual scored.
...you have that “He Knows” sinking feeling.
...you see a picture of food and it looks really good and suddenly you can taste it perfectly and then you really want it.
....you are late to class and are trying to find a parking spot. You find one, only to discover that there is a small car there instead.
...you realize something about someone, and you feel discouraged to associate with them ever again.
...you want to feel bad for yourself.
...that message you expected never came.
...you stay up most of the night thinking of brilliant ideas for tomorrow but when you wake up you can’t remember them.
...the person you miss randomly texts you.
That Awkward Moment When...
...you realize your fly was open the entire time.
...you are introducing someone and get their name wrong.
...you try to exit through a closed door.
...someone you don't want to date asks you out.
...you try to sneak a photo of someone but the flash goes off.
...you confidently say the wrong answer aloud in class.
...you push on the bathroom stall door thinking no one was inside.
...you're singing Happy Birthday but you don't know the name of the person so you just mumble the name part.
...someone walks in while you're changing.
...you're trying to get over someone you never even dated.
...you're in a class where you don't speak to anyone and your teacher says, "Go find a partner."
...you've accidentally sent a text to the friend you were gossiping about.
...unexpected visitors arrive at 11am and you're still in your PJ's.
...you realize you've kept talking after the call dropped out.
...you don't know where to stand to pull your wedgie out without being noticed.
...you don't know if you should hug someone or not.
...you see someone that looks like someone you know, you scream their name and it's not them.
...you're watching a movie and somebody keeps talking.
...everyone glares at you because you forgot to put your phone on silent during a meeting.
...you don't know which arm rest is yours at the cinema.
...someone is doing the dishes and you slowly put another dish in the sink.
...you have to make up an excuse to not hang out with someone because you'd rather chill at home.
...your friends tell your crush how much you talk about him.
...everyone you're texting forgets to text you all at once
...you say "Goodbye!" to someone but you both walk off in the same direction.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Sometimes I wonder why I even try. What is the purpose if all you're ever going to get is failure, shut downs or disappointment? Why put yourself through something like that just to be told no? It gets me so frustrated that no matter what I do the answer is always the same. No matter how hard I try I'm not making progress. I'm stuck in this spot. Just repeating myself over and over again. Living each day the same as the last. And for what? In all honesty I don't know. I just know that at some point things will change and be better. Giving up is not in my vocabulary. Turning back is not the answer. I have to remind myself that this is just a storm. Things will end and a rainbow will shine. It's all an illusion that I have fooled myself into believing. People are the best liars to themselves. Regardless of what I feel or think I am making progress. Everyday I get closer to my goal and it's worth it. It's hard but I have faith I'll get there. I don't know what my future holds and where I'll end up but I do know it will be good. Every tear, every painful moment will not have gone to waste.